when the world is whirling

has anything ever happened and you're feeling down or worried or or maybe even a little scared cause that something that happened kinda changed you life, maybe it's not life or death but it's something you now have to deal with forever? have you ever been sick of putting on brave faces and not admitting how bad you've been? have you ever felt that the world is whirling all around you, unaware and seemingly unconcerned that you're even feeling this way? and it's not even that no one cares really but that everyone is busy doing their own things and maybe don't realize you're freaking out and no one has time to think that maybe you'd like the chance to break and not have to be strong for once and be strong for you. but on the other hand you don't want be annoying and plead and beg for someone to pay attention for five minutes and realize you need them. it's a pretty lonesome place to be. ps my dad is a jerkwad.